Thursday, December 2, 2010

Carnival Angst





It was the usual end of the year festival at Green Axes where everybody would go out of their houses to enjoy the day. I would be accompanied by my parents and siblings to the carnival. My aunt Eve wouldn’t be able to go this year because of some problems mom wouldn’t make mention in the house.

As practiced, I would be left alone in the carnival riding all I want as long as they would buy me unlimited tickets. "Don't go too far without your brother, Jean," mom said as usual. I found it very strange why my little brother wouldn’t accompany me at the carousel today. He told me he saw a nasty little boy who would taunt him. I didn’t pay attention to this until I saw the boy myself. I saw him sitting behind the operator’s table with a knife in his right hand and a rag doll on the other.

He cheerfully stabbed the doll a dozen times and stopped when he noticed me staring at him. He was about my age and I noticed my cheeks turned pink. He was handsome and was white as snow. He looked like he was born royalty. At my young age at ten, it was the first time I appreciated somebody, particularly a boy. I slowly moved closer to him when suddenly he ran away. The boys nearby laughed at me at this sight. I was confused why he ran, was it because I stared at him too much.. I found out later why.. I followed him through the dark passage of the carousel under and saw him sitting on the ground. I felt like I knew him for more than a year. I sat beside him and asked. “May I help you? You seem to be troubled by something..” For a few seconds he only sat there staring at his doll, then the next minute he looked at me with confusion on his face.

Then he began to open his mouth but no words would come out. This started to make me feel a little scared. His eyes rolled and his hand landed on my lap. It was so cold. While his head bowed, I tried to look him straight in the face and what I saw made my hair stand on end. He had no eyes and his mouth was beginning to draw blood. I couldn’t think of anything to do. My feet were stuck with horror. His grasp was getting tighter and tighter. I tried to scream but the laughter outside drowned my voice. I wished I could scream as loud as I can get but it was no help. I couldn’t contain my consciousness anymore and I saw everything turned pitch-black.

When I woke up, I was in the hospital lying down with my mother at my side. I asked her what happened and she had very teary eyes when she said’ “Your little brother found you lying beside the carousel unconscious. There was blood all over your dress but you weren’t injured. We also saw a little boy beside you. But it was a pitiful sight. He was stabbed many times and the doll he was holding was said to be a prize he won over at the carnival. He was killed by your uncle, Eve’s husband Eric, who turned lunatic and got loose from the asylum. It’s just funny why the boy still seemed to be killed just yesterday when in fact he was killed a week ago, on your birthday.” After hearing that, I nearly fainted when I remembered on my birthday the boy was actually there where he was accompanied by my uncle who was reported to have killed himself after he killed the boy, on the same day, at the same time of my party.

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

A Movement for Eliminating Violence Against Children


Change your facebook profile picture to a cartoon from your childhood and invite your friends to do the same. Until Monday (December 6), there should be no human faces on facebook, but a stash of memories. This is for eliminating violence against children.


This was the status that I saw the moment I logged on Facebook last night. I was excited to relive some of the best cartoons during childhood, most of which belong to the Notable Animes in the 90s.

It is a happy yet nostalgic experience to remember the cartoon series we all used to watch when we were little. If you haven't changed your profile pic yet, do so now, it's only Wednesday.. do it for the children. ;)


Julio at Julia, ang kambal ng tadhana. My chosen profile picture. :)

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

My Blog Revamped!


After going through a number of layout change and months of stagnation, I decided to reboot this blog. There's not much to see here as of the moment as I only take the time to edit stuff during my free time.

Sad to say I had to trash my supposedly new blog because blogger has more free features. What I have to pay at wordpress I can get for free at blogger. And I hope it stays that way! Haha.

Some of the features aren't working yet and `will update in time. ;)

Saturday, October 23, 2010

Brownies!




My birthday gift to one of my best buds, ging Lhove..
Had nothing to post so I just uploaded this. Haha!
Been really busy with work lately that I don't get to do my hobby - drawing. I have this sketch that I had with me for years and I still haven't finished it yet. I always plan to complete it every Sunday but I only find myself sleeping all day. :D

Ciao~

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Where is ZX Lotus Now?


One month has passed since ZX Online PH was shut down. Weeks before that, many of us were already thinking what game to transfer to. When ZX closing was announced, our master Chris told us to try out the new game about to be released by PWI. Initially, several clanmates downloaded the game client and tried it out. But I was among the ones who stayed with ZX til the last minute. I was not ready yet to try a new game. It would seem like having an instant new boyfriend after you just broke up with your ex. ;p

Anyways, I downloaded Heroes of Three Kingdoms after a few days. I tried it out and at the beginning found it boring because there was no talisman feature! So I went back to playing ZX even though I was the only person online in our clan. When there was no choice left, I went back to HOTK.

Luckily, my former clanmates were eager to teach me every step of the way namely master Chris, Richard, Lenin, Johnver, Jule, Mots and Aldrin. I began to love the game. There were lotus too who were there but did not last and moved to Jade Dynasty instead. Very few were left but we were joined by new recruits coming from different parts of the world - mostly Pinoys too.

I know that the original members of ZX Online Lotus Clan were divided between HOTK and JD. But the people I come to know more are in HOTK. And I hope some of those in JD would transfer too BUT that may just be wishful thinking. There are some things in HOTK that seem too hard for someone who got used to the friendlier features in ZX.

With my ForeplaY family, all of them returned to RF Online - my real life buddies that is. I can never really miss them as I see them almost everyday in our tambayan cafe. XD But the name "Foreplay" has been carried on to HOTK with Aldrin as the head. ;)

We may not be together, but you will always be in my heart.